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I know, I know, I am a lurky lurker who lurks and doesn't let people know when she is still alive.

Cut for real life stress and Lost spoilers )

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So I love TB dearly. He is generally a lovely guy, caring, sweet, the whole package however he has just got me locked out of my flat without my keys or my phone while none of my flat mates are in... yeah.

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Two days ago it was my birthday. I was born at five minutes to midnight on the twenty sixth of January in the year 1990. I have now been on this earth for twenty years, eight hours and forty six minutes. People have been describing this to me in various ways. I'm closer to thirty than I am to ten. When I live I long as I have now I'll be forty. Its only twice ten. I guess it's a glass half full/half empty sort of thing.

Of course I don't feel any different. When I was little I used to say that "When I am five I'm going to be good." And then the next year: "When I am six I'm going to be good." I have not been saying the when I am twenty I am going to be good because I probably won't be but I was thinking that this term I would be a bit more organised than I was last term. This hasn't really happened so far but hey, we can always hope.

I guess I'm thankful. In twenty years I haven't been happy all the time but then again I haven't been constantly sad. I've got issues but then who hasn't? I've managed to grow up fairly alright. Insecure, a bit lazy and too eager to please but basically okay. Up until very recently I still had the tendency to think of myself as a girl but I'm not. I'm not even a teenager any more. I hope that I'll always have bits of the girl I was within me but I've got to stop clinging on to her. I always want to look back to some imagined time when everything was perfect but I can't and don't want to do that any more. I think I can be a young woman instead. It isn't so bad. In fact I'm pretty happy most of the time. I like the woman that I have become.

Yeah I have... deeps.

Anyway my birthday was also good because we found the house that we are going to rent next year. Its an old Victorian Terrace and my room is fairly small but it has all this old furniture and we kind of love it already. We signed for it yesterday. Admittedly I have been having worry dreams about it but I'll get over it.

Also got recalled for my Accidental Death of an Anarchist audition.

Now all I need to do is some work and tidy my room.


Jan. 20th, 2010 11:15 am
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Have an exam in less than three hours. Am not prepared enough. Just spent an hour reading fandom secrets and Penny/Sheldon fic. A) I need to be revising and B) I've never read either of those things before. What the hell brain?!

Just concentrate for three more hours on macromolecules and metabolism then I promise that you can have as much fandom ravings as you want.

You know if I don't get a job I won't have money for internet.

(Not that this is actually that important an exam and I think I'm going to pass but still... How can one be a perfectionist and still be so bloody lazy? Why am I still typing?! WTF brain?!)
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It is exam time!

Really, really not yay! So I only have one left but it is Biochemistry which by all rights someone on an English and History course shouldn't be doing. I should just tell them that on the day. "Sorry but I'm not suppose to be here, well I am, but if you just give me a moment to go back in time and tell my slightly younger self NOT TO BE SO BLOODY STUPID then everything will be sorted out and dandy, no? Crap.

All is okay though. I, vaguely, know how to do the Malate-Aspartate shuffle and I have many pretty pieces of paper suffering from an abundance of coloured pens scattered around my room. If I just make the notes look pretty enough they will soak into my brain, that is how it works isn't it? Isn't it?!

The snow has pretty much all gone by now. Just a couple of sad lumps scattered around the halls. For a couple of days though you did risk serious injury if you ventured outside as the was black ice literally everywhere. I walked into uni the other day and, if I hadn't been in exactly the same position, watching everyone walking very, very slowly and then falling over would have been the funniest thing ever. 

Being Human has started!

Mildly spoilery thoughts )
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Okay I wouldn't mind normally. Because hey it never snows this much up here and yes it is, or would be, kind of cool. But not when TB is meant to be coming up from the South tomorrow. Yes my dad has a four wheel drive and he has said that he'll be able to pick him up from the train station but still... I get the feeling that the weather doesn't like me.

Also yes believe me I know I'm being irrational but I didn't think I'd miss him so much. Its only been about three weeks... I would never survive a long distance relationship. So yeah. Crazy is crazy.


Oct. 3rd, 2009 09:47 pm
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Well mainly Merlin. First of all I just want to have a small breakdown about the hopefully temporary demise of my laptop. It was being slow and unresponsive and generally pissing about so I gave it a metaphorical boot up the arse by turning it off and turning it back on again. That is how you fix computers after all. Unfortunatly my laptop took issue with this and has decided that it likes the process of waking up so much that it is going to do that again and again and again in a continuous loop without ever actually, to extend the metaphor a tad further, getting the hell out of bed! Seriously I turn it on, it does its loading screen, picture of an apple, circle thing going round, loading, loading, funny "I is dead" noise, blank screen then we are back to the loading screen and the whole thing starts again.


As you can imagine this has made me very unhappy. Am going to take it to the repair shop down the road that does Mac on Monday but still... why at the weekend laptop? Why?

So I watched Merlin on a friend's laptop and was cheered up at least a little.

Merlin.... )


Aug. 30th, 2009 01:37 am
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 I do not like my new haircut. Its too... blah. Quite like the fringe but the rest of it not so much... it is somewhere between boy cut and bob and when you've just got used to having it just to your shoulders that kind of cut just doesn't look right. It is just really annoying. I keep wanting to put it in a pony tail or something.

In other news I started watching Lost again. Have just watched the Juliet episode "The Other Women" and am slightly annoyed at the whole "Mine" thing. Also where is the Juliet/Sawyer that I keep seeing hints of around the internet. Do not want Jack/Juliet want Sawyer/Juliet or just Juliet. Why is Juliet not as awesome this season?  


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